Another end of the year full of terror

THE BRIEF VERSION ... THIS NEWS }} www.bbc.co.uk/news/world-latin…   (which my country doesnt show up on the news, but the rest of the world does, thank you rest of the world, for not being an asshole and revealing the truth).

But i wont discuss politics right now.

As of this year, as of this particular week, let me tell you how yesterday  was.... first of all, the police decided to strike, COINCIDENTALLY, also the internet MISTERIOUSLY Stops working from  14 pm to at least 18 pm (where most pillages took place) so we can't tell each other where the pillages are taking place (yes the goverment is involved), at least a dozen if not more supermarket pillages took place, the people making the raids, organized them on facebook (I SHIT YOU NOT), decided to sell the things they stole on facebook (AGAIN I SHIT YOU NOT) and even took pictures of them commiting the stealings and the violence, you know, facebook generation... I've seen many pictures, some locations are near my house, but i consider something of bad taste to show them to you), of course, people got injured, some people died, my friends heard gunshots near them, the police is nowhere to be seen, the army is non existant thank to past and current goverments who decided to abolish them in the past, at midnight even more pillages all across the center of town (thats where i live).

As of today... december the 10th.. hospitals are getting pillaged, you cant buy anything because everyone closed, NO ONE IS at the street except those damn bikes, shots can be heard, store owners attempt to defend their place with guns but they are overwhelmed by these hordes of scum, police is still on strike doing nothing, scumbags are assaulting and pillaging people riding bikes with clubs wearing just underwear (I SHIT YOU NOT AGAIN) houses are starting to get assaulted, friends told me they seen people dying, and that there are children CHILDREN severely injured, and yes, they can't even get treated because these scumbagas decided now to pillage fucking hospitals.... and i can't communicate with my grandfather who's so stubborn he still opens his little kiosk amongst the whole chaos and yes, I'm absolutely terrified and shaking while I write this. The governor misteriously abandoned and is nowhere to be seen on this city, and the president is of course, nowheer to be seen and without anything to say (she only speaks bullshit anyways), on TV, they are saying that nothing is ocurring, because the capital is relatively safe, so nothing anywhere else could be happening, also the local newspapers are getting their stories deleted (I SHIT YOU NOT) and i cant post anything on facebook due to the fear of getting killed, in fact, i'm already scared of writting this, even if i dont remember if i mentioned where I exactly live, i try to be careful on that subject with our current goverment and my personnal paranoia.

This has become a No Man's Land. The third world of the third world.

And I lost all hope for it.

Also my birthday and the next day christmas is coming, since last year, both have been constantly surrounded by pillages, death and misery. Quite ironic the coming of Christ is celebrated this way, wheter you believe or not.

Also, due to all this ruckus, the defense of my thesis has been suspended, I'll be able to defend it on february next year, if I make it to that month, or if there's even a society to begin with. 

I can't take any of this anymore, and I have no idea how to escape, or where to go, goverment has restricted a lot of our possibilites to even GO ON VACATION outside due to its stupid dollar policies, they want us all here so we all kill each other and die in here, let alone pretending to go live somewhere better, I thougth science would offer me that possibility it would definitely be harder with art (and considering my skill who I gotta confess its not really outstanding), but I didn't find my way.

I dont want to end this journal on a dramatic end, sorry for my bad english I'm very disturbed and I can't write as calm as I would like it to be.